update

Sry haven't been on for awhile but I have been up to no good...   First, I've been partying with a bunch of 15 yr olds and they stole my shit.  Then they proceeded to break in yesterday and steal some more shit so, I'm done with them.  I think i'm getting depressed b/c of all this trouble i keep getting into...

HI

I'm so sick right now it's not even funny...  I've been doing to much lately and this is what happens when i get to stressed...  I talked to Jen's GF today, and i guess she is one of those protective girls or something like that.  She won't let Jen talk to me i don't think.  soo.....  


bye

okay

So me and Jen are just a little more than friends not really gf's.  But that may b exactly what i need right now so it all works.  I have been talking to a few people recently and they are all very nice.  i'm gaining experience thru Jen so hopefully in a month i will no longer be inexperienced.

so GF

I have a girlfriend...  Her name is Jen and she is 24...  She lives about an hour away but she's so cute...  She's everything i want.  She is cute, and wants to help me learn more about sex, and she comforts me....  BTW:  She turns me on when she comforts me...

I only wish that i wasn't so scared, or nervous.  I think to much in that is where problems lie.  She's trying to teach me some things but i ran and hid.  I feel so bad..  but at the same time i don't think i would have done it differently. She is willing to show me things i'm ready to do but I am scared....

She is a cutie...  She is coming here in august if not b4.  i can't wait to meet her in person...  hopefully it last.

Blue

sry

Sorry i haven't been on lately, I've been busy all week trying to get things done for pride.  But turns out the people i was supposed to go to pride with bailed out, so i can't go.  :(  I'm not very happy about it.  I had so much planned to get done that day.  To me, my first pride is going to be another step in coming out (maybe the last step)  so that's y i am so upset about it.  idk what to do...  I really wanted to go but i don't think that's going to happen... The worst thing is that i'm supposed to go back to school with pics and stories from pride.  Now that won't happen.  So for now,

The trains rolling but going over some bumps in the tracks

Dads fam

So, my dad and his family officially know that i'm gay...  They aren't happy but they just have to get used to it.  They say they still love me..  They thru some things at me like:

The bible says Adam and Eve for a reason

my answer:  There are better gay parents than some straight ones, also when i'm ready for a kid i'll go fuck a dude and get one.

they said that I'm confused since i've never technically been with a guy.  which I don't know how to respond.

My dad i think went and cried but that's to b expected in my opinion.  It was weird how the convo went b/c we went from talking about me being gay, to my mom abondoning me, to how i had to get used to the things they do.

So all in all i think it went pretty well...

The trains a rolling

stuff

I have a lot to say but I don't really know where to start.  My feelings are a jumbled mess and i'm trying to figure them out.  I have started a youtube channel that i update: www.youtube.com/mssmiley89  hopefully that will get you there.  I will try and write more later this week.  Pride is in 9 days.  I'll b back later this week.

The trains rolling now trying to figure out what track it's going to take...