update!!

So here's an update:

1)  Coming out week at UIS was a blast.  Monday, I realized your never really done coming out.  Wed, we watched Transamerica and I realized how bad i hurt ami.  Friday, was a dragshow, and realized that those are quite fun.  Decievia man Is quite attractive.

2)  I think I'm attracted to MTF's actually.  I haven't realized if this is good or bad yet, but the trans thing is very interesting.

3)  Dating is actually turning out to be interesting.  It's not alot of work especially since I'm usually busy doing other things now.

4)  I started up my GSA at school.  I'm president and we passed out beads on the 20th for the suicide awareness.  Our first big event is this friday and we are watching rent.

5)  I met my first lez couple yesterday.  And I just wish I could hangout with them for a week and see how they go about life...

6)  I found out some guys think when you get drunk your lesbian side goes away.

That's all that's affected me for now...  Till next time
LIVE YOUR LIFE

hi

I've been holding on to this for a few days now.  This is the first time my mom's fam acknowledged I was gay.  

we were on the topic of marriage and that i was next on the list out of my moms' friends kids to get married

and my aunt said you have to have a boy to do that

and i said i can get married in iowa

and then they said

it's not acknowledged here and we aren't acknowledging it either

my aunt said all the above

but my mom didn't say anything

A much needed update

I don't know if anyone reads this b/c i haven't gotten anyone asking where I've been.  But I'm going to tell you what i've been up to anyway.  Lets see:

I switched classes.  Switched from a photography class to a math class.

Trying to balance a social life with my school life is turning out to be quite difficult.

I guess the true reason I haven't written is b/c This blog was for my coming out story.  And I have came out and am okay with it now.  I no longer think 'I wonder how many other gay people are here'.  Now it's more of 'I wonder who else didn't do their homework'.  When I first started coming out people told other people by just mentioning certain things. I didn't know how i was ever going to do that.  Now I do, if something comes up and reminds me of ami, or if i get a text from people who I am talking to while I'm around someone who doesn't know, I'll mention it.  Everyone I've told actually is okay with it.

So leaving things on a good note, I think this is a good-bye for now.  I'll try and check in once a month or so.  But I may start a new blog and next month I'll link it.

Thanks for listening and when I tell my coming story I'll link people to this blog.

hi

So my senior year started today.  I told everyone about ami and what happened.  I'm in search of a long-term gf. Someone nice, considerate, open-minded, and lots of other things.  I think i'm over Ami, it's fun to annoy her and her gf though.

This is it for now, I'll try and write at the end of the week

broke-up, cheating, and LDR

So, I was dating Ami for about 2 weeks.  We broke up on Wednesday Aug. 10.  I was looking on the dating site we met on last night, and it said she had a fiance, so I called her and we talked.  I found out she basically cheated on me the whole time.  Cheating encompasses many things so I'll tell you what she did.  While she was dating me her heart was with some one else.  Now to me that's emotionally cheating because your not fully in the relationship, and you want a relationship with someone else.

I'm very hurt, mad, pissed, sad.  The fair started last night and as always I'm going with my fam today to the fair all day.  And i'm going to forget about her, at least for the day.  I love the fair, She's not going to ruin my first day of my favorite time of year in this town.  I am hopefully moving to st. louis next year so this is quite possibly the last fair i will attend while living here. :(  

Therefore, I'm not going to let her ruin it.  My fam will b here in half an hour or less and when they get here I will forget all about Ami at least for today

hi

Hello world I haven't been on for a while so i thought i'd give u an update.  Right now i'm really tired so this probably won't win an a an a english class.  My senior year starts in 2 weeks.  And I'm not sure if i'm ready for it or not.  There's so much that comes into play next summer that i don't even want to start to manage my life.  anyway, I'm still with Ami but i'm not sure for how much longer.  I talked to her tonight and she really didn't seem to happy to talk to me, so.  We will see what happens.  The fair start this thursday (a week from today).  and then the day after that ends school starts.  this is what ive been up to talk to you soon.

Ami

Well, my whole summer is complete now.  I've got everything done with 3 weeks to spare  :).  The girl in my last post is name is ami and she is my gf as of yesterday.  We planning on me moving in with her when i graduate next year.  She lives about 8 hrs away though.  I said i wanted to move so i guess it's then or never right??  anyway..  We are moving out of TN when she finishes school, and that will b in like 6 yrs or so.  Now let me tell you that's a long time and i've never thought that far into the future...  Hopefully we will b married by then and have some kids.   Funny thing, I never seen me as the marrying type but my life's changing so i better catch up.  But she's awesome and I love her to pieces even though we have never met and only been talking since thursday...