hi

So my senior year started today.  I told everyone about ami and what happened.  I'm in search of a long-term gf. Someone nice, considerate, open-minded, and lots of other things.  I think i'm over Ami, it's fun to annoy her and her gf though.

This is it for now, I'll try and write at the end of the week

broke-up, cheating, and LDR

So, I was dating Ami for about 2 weeks.  We broke up on Wednesday Aug. 10.  I was looking on the dating site we met on last night, and it said she had a fiance, so I called her and we talked.  I found out she basically cheated on me the whole time.  Cheating encompasses many things so I'll tell you what she did.  While she was dating me her heart was with some one else.  Now to me that's emotionally cheating because your not fully in the relationship, and you want a relationship with someone else.

I'm very hurt, mad, pissed, sad.  The fair started last night and as always I'm going with my fam today to the fair all day.  And i'm going to forget about her, at least for the day.  I love the fair, She's not going to ruin my first day of my favorite time of year in this town.  I am hopefully moving to st. louis next year so this is quite possibly the last fair i will attend while living here. :(  

Therefore, I'm not going to let her ruin it.  My fam will b here in half an hour or less and when they get here I will forget all about Ami at least for today

hi

Hello world I haven't been on for a while so i thought i'd give u an update.  Right now i'm really tired so this probably won't win an a an a english class.  My senior year starts in 2 weeks.  And I'm not sure if i'm ready for it or not.  There's so much that comes into play next summer that i don't even want to start to manage my life.  anyway, I'm still with Ami but i'm not sure for how much longer.  I talked to her tonight and she really didn't seem to happy to talk to me, so.  We will see what happens.  The fair start this thursday (a week from today).  and then the day after that ends school starts.  this is what ive been up to talk to you soon.

Ami

Well, my whole summer is complete now.  I've got everything done with 3 weeks to spare  :).  The girl in my last post is name is ami and she is my gf as of yesterday.  We planning on me moving in with her when i graduate next year.  She lives about 8 hrs away though.  I said i wanted to move so i guess it's then or never right??  anyway..  We are moving out of TN when she finishes school, and that will b in like 6 yrs or so.  Now let me tell you that's a long time and i've never thought that far into the future...  Hopefully we will b married by then and have some kids.   Funny thing, I never seen me as the marrying type but my life's changing so i better catch up.  But she's awesome and I love her to pieces even though we have never met and only been talking since thursday...

So...

Idk what to say,  I wish there was a way to just lay all ur cards on the table and b like can u deal with this and be happy.   I was happy but i guess i still am i am just wearing off the high of a gf.  We are still talking and hopefully going to be in a relationship soon, but i think i can deal now.  The high of talking to her all the time is wearing off, and if i don't talk to her all the time maybe she'll have stuff to say to.

May i mention we just had our first disagreement i guess you can call it.  I'll get over it and hopefully we will talk tonight.  Sunday will b the day to c if this is going to work b/c all of her company will b gone then

hi

I think i'm falling love...  But i'm going about it totally the wrong way.  All I want to do is talk to her constantly, I'm worried i'm smothering her.  She said she likes the attention but idk.  She lives 8hrs away and the worst thing is we just met today.  I never have felt this way b4, I usually like to annoy people but i'm trying so hard not to b annoying i don't think i know how not to be annoying.  If falling for someone includes the following:

Can't stop thinking about them
Don't really care what you talk about
Get worried that you did something wrong when u don't talk to them for a few hours

Then i'm falling and i'm falling fast.  She's really cute, we like the same things, and she actually seems like she cares about me...

I think her caring about me is where she gets me.  As we all know i've been abused and you know how nice it is to finally talk to someone who cares about you and might b falling for you too??  It feels really good.  But i'm scared i'm going to scare her away and loose her.

hi

so..  My house got broken into again.  Half the people distracted me in the front yard while the others broke the back door.  But they heard me yelling to get out and they left.  There's so much to say but i don't really know where to start.  That was big it happened on monday night.  Just dealing with stuff like usual.  I keep climbing these mountains and enjoying the flat parts.  check out my youtube there is much more about me on there:  youtube.com/mssmiley89.