Ami

Well, my whole summer is complete now.  I've got everything done with 3 weeks to spare  :).  The girl in my last post is name is ami and she is my gf as of yesterday.  We planning on me moving in with her when i graduate next year.  She lives about 8 hrs away though.  I said i wanted to move so i guess it's then or never right??  anyway..  We are moving out of TN when she finishes school, and that will b in like 6 yrs or so.  Now let me tell you that's a long time and i've never thought that far into the future...  Hopefully we will b married by then and have some kids.   Funny thing, I never seen me as the marrying type but my life's changing so i better catch up.  But she's awesome and I love her to pieces even though we have never met and only been talking since thursday...

So...

Idk what to say,  I wish there was a way to just lay all ur cards on the table and b like can u deal with this and be happy.   I was happy but i guess i still am i am just wearing off the high of a gf.  We are still talking and hopefully going to be in a relationship soon, but i think i can deal now.  The high of talking to her all the time is wearing off, and if i don't talk to her all the time maybe she'll have stuff to say to.

May i mention we just had our first disagreement i guess you can call it.  I'll get over it and hopefully we will talk tonight.  Sunday will b the day to c if this is going to work b/c all of her company will b gone then

hi

I think i'm falling love...  But i'm going about it totally the wrong way.  All I want to do is talk to her constantly, I'm worried i'm smothering her.  She said she likes the attention but idk.  She lives 8hrs away and the worst thing is we just met today.  I never have felt this way b4, I usually like to annoy people but i'm trying so hard not to b annoying i don't think i know how not to be annoying.  If falling for someone includes the following:

Can't stop thinking about them
Don't really care what you talk about
Get worried that you did something wrong when u don't talk to them for a few hours

Then i'm falling and i'm falling fast.  She's really cute, we like the same things, and she actually seems like she cares about me...

I think her caring about me is where she gets me.  As we all know i've been abused and you know how nice it is to finally talk to someone who cares about you and might b falling for you too??  It feels really good.  But i'm scared i'm going to scare her away and loose her.

hi

so..  My house got broken into again.  Half the people distracted me in the front yard while the others broke the back door.  But they heard me yelling to get out and they left.  There's so much to say but i don't really know where to start.  That was big it happened on monday night.  Just dealing with stuff like usual.  I keep climbing these mountains and enjoying the flat parts.  check out my youtube there is much more about me on there:  youtube.com/mssmiley89.

so...

IDK if i've posted this yet but here it goes...   Last weekend I lost my v-chip.  Well in the lesbian way i guess.  She went down on me and in my mind that is considered sex so... She wasn't very good though.  I didn't get off at all and it felt like she didn't know what she was doing at all.  oh yeah, she was trans.

Probably post more later but that's my news.

What's I want in a Girlfriend

Girlfriend

Someone who does the little things in life.  If I don't sleep good and there's way to much that needs to be done, I want someone who if they wake up and i'm asleep they can do some of the work just to make me happy.  Someone to go to sleep with and wake up to.  I can't wait to share the little things in life with someone.  I don't want to have to worry about annoying them, if something happens I want them to want me to call them.  Someone who I can send a text to saying I'm pissed, and they will call me right away, and won't hang up till I feel better or at least until I know what to do.  These are the things I would like my girl to do,  Oh yeah and if anyone I am dating finds this blog, I love to be called baby.  Especially your baby, this turns me on, also if you do this while you comfort me, I will get turned on in a minute.  

update

Sry haven't been on for awhile but I have been up to no good...   First, I've been partying with a bunch of 15 yr olds and they stole my shit.  Then they proceeded to break in yesterday and steal some more shit so, I'm done with them.  I think i'm getting depressed b/c of all this trouble i keep getting into...

HI

I'm so sick right now it's not even funny...  I've been doing to much lately and this is what happens when i get to stressed...  I talked to Jen's GF today, and i guess she is one of those protective girls or something like that.  She won't let Jen talk to me i don't think.  soo.....  


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